To be honest, this week has been subpar. Since I last blogged, I have spent the majority of my time studying for the microbiology test I took on Tuesday and watching Scrubs on Netflix. That show is hilarious and I have no idea why I am just now watching it for the first time!!
Anyway, I always seem to freak out about tests more than I should. This micro test was no different. It did cover a lot of information and I probably should have started studying a lot sooner than I did (which was about 5 days in advance). Antibiotics kicked my butt. And a lot of the different types of diarrhea had a lot of the same symptoms and were easily confusable. Also it was hard to study the STI because the notes had very graphic pictures. TMI. Sorry. Lol. But my test grade ended up being quite satisfactory, which was a lot better than I thought I would do.
Also this week, I kind of had a mini pre-midlife crisis. And actually it can probably be attributed to preparing for this micro test. Heck, it might even be the sophomore slump. But I think I just got super stressed with so many things coming at me at once along with the own pressures I was putting on myself, with parental pressures, and even lack of sleep. I just wasn’t sure if school was what I wanted, if it was worth all the stress, the money, or the hours spent studying. And I wasn’t sure if I was truly cut out for college or if I was even truly good at school to begin with. I was even questioning my reasoning for wanting to major in nursing. And I really was not sure I wanted to continue my higher education.
But honestly, finishing college is on my bucket list. Realistically I would like to accomplish it sooner rather than later (no offense to those who are doing it later rather than sooner). And honestly, I really can’t wait to be done with schooling and actually have a purpose for my life, as nerdy/cliché as that sounds. Right now that idea seems so daunting and so far away, mainly because I still have so much crap to do, like apply to nursing school, actually get accepted, pass all the requirements and actually graduate (Yikes!), but I feel like it’s something that will eventually be worth it in the end, and I really am excited for that.