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28 Mar

Hey friends. I know it’s been a long while. This semester has been getting the best of me. So, I’ll try to catch you guys up on what’s been happening since I last blogged.

Basically, I didn’t get into the nursing program at MU… again. And basically it sucks. But things happen for a reason and now I’ve just reevaluating my life and my future. Upon advising, I found out that I have about 2 semesters left until I complete my undergraduate degree if I switch to health sciences, an idea that is VERY APPEALING. This week, which is spring break, I visited my cousin. I just kind of opened up to her and explained what was going on. Mainly I just feel stuck in this rut and I’m so completely burnt out on school. If we’re being accurate, I’ve been burnt out since I graduated from high school. She suggested that I finish my degree as soon as possible and get the hell out of the Midwest. She said that if I’m having a “mid-life crisis” already in my early twenties, I need a change in my life because well the 20’s are where you find out who you are. You’re supposed to be living life, learning from mistakes, and not continually stressed out about what your future is going to be, and obviously that is not me. And I really have to agree. Lately, I just have been feeling kind of stuck, with school, with life, etc. I truly believe that nursing is what I want to do, but just not right now. My cousin said that if I am really feeling this way, I should take a break, because if I force it, I’m going to start hating it.

If everything works out/goes according to plan, I’ll hope to finish my bachelor’s in a year (possibly 1.5 years) and I’ll probably be moving to Boston (somewhere I’ve always wanted to go and it’s a place totally different from the Midwest), find a job out there and stay out there for a year/2 years/ x years, and eventually, maybe, move back to KC, because honestly I really do love KC. And somewhere in there I’ll probably see if I can get into a nursing program. I just need a break from what I’ve known. Of course a lot can happen in that time, so I guess we’ll just have to see what happens.

That being said, I still applied to CMU’s nursing program. They had talked it up, saying that people like me often get into their program, and if I get in, I’m not entirely sure if I will take it. My parents are going to be disappointed probably, but I just don’t want to force anything, you know? GOD, WHY IS LIFE IS SO HARD?

Anyway, other than that, Hy-Vee is becoming my 2nd home, reading the Divergent series is how I procrastinate my time, I’m currently obsessing over Theo James and Bastille, my grades are doing alright, and I am still loathing school. My spring break was cut short because I decided to work. And I spent one day working at the marina over break while I was home. I’m really excited to go back there actually, especially since most everyone I know will be there. That being said, summer will be here in a short 1.5 months, and I’m so EXCITED.

Thanks for reading/listening to me rant on about my life. Maybe you’ll hear from me again before the semester ends, but I can’t guarantee anything!

Peace out, girl scouts.


Year In Review

16 May

As of yesterday, my semester/year has finally ended, and to be honest it’s kind of bittersweet. Coming to Mizzou was never really a plan that I had planned on following through with. Though it’s been an adventure adjusting to this new environment, I feel like I made the right choice, and I hope that I’ll be able finish my education here (fingers crossed for nursing school!). That isn’t to say that I regret my year at Jewell, because I don’t. But I guess if there’s one thing I regret it’s not making the decision to come to Mizzou first, if that makes sense… Haha.

This Spring semester has most definitely, hands down, been the most challenging/stressful semester I have ever gone through. This week especially. I hate finals. It probably could almost classify as a miracle that I’ve even made it out alive. But still, for the most part I’ve enjoyed every class that I was in.

Here are some highlights/lessons learned/favorite memories of my year at Mizzou (in no particular order or importance).

  • Getting my first speeding ticket, also getting my first parking ticket (the latter was yesterday, when I almost missed my last final.)
  • Seeing Imagine Dragons preform… FOR FREE. And seeing Passion Pit and Matt & Kim for a small fee.
  • Being sick for 6 weeks. Not cool man. I’m better now though.
  • Microbiology 2800. I don’t care who you are/what your major is, you need to take this class to know the hilarity/awesomeness that is Dr. Furrer. Besides that, subject matter/teaching wise, it’s probably the best class I have ever taken. Ever.
  • Getting 2.5 snow days.
  • I can procrastinate like no body’s business. Thank you Netflix, FB, Twitter, YouTube, Pinterest and Imgur. That being said, apparently my body can’t handle stress that is usually a result of procrastination very well (see point #3).
  • The closest I got to an all-nighter was sleeping only for 2 hours…. On many, many, many nights.
  • Ellis library is freaking awesome. Although scary as well (I’m sure librarian Kendyl could tell you more so than I can)
  • Getting a lot of free things, including shirts and lots of food.
  • Attractive male in my history class.  He was real attractive.
  • I miss music/violin more than I thought I would, probably one downside to coming to MU.
  • I’ve been able to appreciate my family and KC a lot more now that I’m 123 miles/1.5 hours away.
  • The basement of the Student Union has very comfy couches that are GREAT for naps.
  • I probably spent too much in the bookstore on clothing/apparel and books. Gosh I really hate buying books.
  • Never take a “5 minute nap” during a study break. It never ends up being 5 minutes, no matter how hard you try to make it last only 5 minutes.

I can’t believe that I’ve just finished my 2nd year of college. CRAZY!! However I’m getting super excited for summer! Even though I’m going to be so majorly busy, wahhhh!!

Peace out for now!

PS. Sorry Cathy for kind of copying the premise of your post!!

PPS. I just got a little depressed, guys. I googled Kansas City Explorers to find out their schedule this summer. I found out that they’re moving to Irving TX because there wasn’t enough corporate support in KC to keep there here. 😦


30 Apr

I don’t feel like writing or thinking, but I haven’t blogged in a while, so here it goes.

Lately I have been extremely busy. I have been working 12 hours at the library every week and then between 24 and 28 at the marina. The only day I have off from work are Wednesdays so I try to get all of my schoolwork done then. In the past 2 days I have only been to 1 out of 4 classes… oops.

I finished training at the library last week (which means shelving books in every area of the library) so now I get to listen to music while I shelve… It’s the little things. 🙂

Yesterday I drove my car up to Hearnes and then road the bus to work. After work when I get back to Hearnes I realize that I no longer had my car keys (which included my only two car keys, drivers license, both my debit cards, my MU id, and my work card). I had to get Megan to come get me and she took me to check in the library. Then we went to the MU police to see if anyone turned them in. MU police gave me the number for the main bus station, but they were closed for the evening so I had to wait and call back in the morning. In the meantime I had to cancel both of my debit cards, so no one could steal all of the money I just got paid last week. This morning I called the main station and got referred to the MU transportation office and I gave them a description of my keys. Then I road up to school for my class and asked the bus driver if she had anyone turn in a set of keys, but her radio wasn’t working so, she sent me to the bus across the street. When I started to ask this bus driver I barely got anything out before she pointed to my keys hanging on her rearview mirror. I can not tell you how happy I was to see them. Needless to say this was a very stressful, unneeded experience.

Also this video is Hilarious… and slightly explicit.

Keep it Classy.


P.S. I just bought a hammock off of the Clymb… pretty stoaked about that.

P.P.S. I’m going to buy Dirty Dancing off of Amazon next. Can’t wait to see you all!

P.P.P.S. We need to go to a Royals game because they are actually pretty good this year!!


7 Mar

To be honest, this week has been subpar. Since I last blogged, I have spent the majority of my time studying for the microbiology test I took on Tuesday and watching Scrubs on Netflix. That show is hilarious and I have no idea why I am just now watching it for the first time!!

Anyway, I always seem to freak out about tests more than I should. This micro test was no different. It did cover a lot of information and I probably should have started studying a lot sooner than I did (which was about 5 days in advance). Antibiotics kicked my butt. And a lot of the different types of diarrhea had a lot of the same symptoms and were easily confusable. Also it was hard to study the STI because the notes had very graphic pictures. TMI. Sorry. Lol. But my test grade ended up being quite satisfactory, which was a lot better than I thought I would do.

Also this week, I kind of had a mini pre-midlife crisis. And actually it can probably be attributed to preparing for this micro test. Heck, it might even be the sophomore slump. But I think I just got super stressed with so many things coming at me at once along with the own pressures I was putting on myself, with parental pressures, and even lack of sleep. I just wasn’t sure if school was what I wanted, if it was worth all the stress, the money, or the hours spent studying. And I wasn’t sure if I was truly cut out for college or if I was even truly good at school to begin with. I was even questioning my reasoning for wanting to major in nursing. And I really was not sure I wanted to continue my higher education.

But honestly, finishing college is on my bucket list. Realistically I would like to accomplish it sooner rather than later (no offense to those who are doing it later rather than sooner). And honestly, I really can’t wait to be done with schooling and actually have a purpose for my life, as nerdy/cliché as that sounds. Right now that idea seems so daunting and so far away, mainly because I still have so much crap to do, like apply to nursing school, actually get accepted, pass all the requirements and actually graduate (Yikes!), but I feel like it’s something that will eventually be worth it in the end, and I really am excited for that.


Let’s Roll

11 Feb

Things to accomplish this week:

  • Find a house
  • Send out my Valentines
  • Call my parents (haven’t talked to them in awhile land I need more help in house hunting- its scary)
  • Write my “This I Believe” essay (Do you all remember doing this in Thompson’s class?)
  • Finish hanging all my photos and postcards
  • homework
  • Study with (cute) boy for a Meteorology test on Thursday
  • Analyze two post-modern picture books
  • Find a math tutor
  • Meet with my English professor

Yeah, so, let’s not forget I still need to go to class and do everyday homework and go to Bible Study and prep and execute a Valentine’s Day party and hopefully go to the gym to release some stress. Let the week begin! ….well right after I catch up on Glee and The Bachelor… I know, I’ve got my priorities straight!

So, if you all see me on facebook or pinterest or twitter or whatever, yell at me to get back to my list! I’m going to need help staying focused this week.


p.s. I wish I would have written my This I Believe essay in high school…. because then I wouldn’t have to work so hard on it now. I am having so much trouble finding the one thing I believe in and writing about it, plus I am super scared to go into class and have my peers edit it- especially because most of them won’t agree with what I have written so far! -Tangent- One kid wrote about how they believe that going to college and following society’s view of how the world works is stupid and that no one should be an art major- um hello! You are in college right now! Sorry to burst your bubble.

p.p.s I hope you all have a fun Valentine’s Day, but more importantly, that your Ash Wednesday is even better!


7 Feb

Hey guys. To be honest, this week, like most of your weeks, have been pretty dull. Not all that much is exciting in my life.

Remember how in my last few posts I talked about not wanting to do anything academically productive? Well the bad news is that it is all finally catching up to me. I have a paper due tomorrow, a test on Tuesday, multiple online assignments, and like a million readings to catch up on. I don’t know how people live like this for extended periods of time, just not caring about a single class. Maybe it’s just the Asian-ness in me. LOL. But I already regret not doing anything so much! And I just have so much stress right now and I’m pretty sure that’s the reason why my eye has been twitching non-stop for like the past 3 days. Actually I’m not for sure that’s the reason why, I might just have low potassium levels. Haha. But the good news is my sickness/cold is subsiding! Yay!!

Anyway did I mention I hate Thursdays? I believe I already have. But I’m saying it again. And actually I don’t hate every Thursday, just every other Thursday where I’m on campus until 7ish. Today was that Thursday. My last class is probably the stupidest class ever. Mainly because it is really unorganized and every time the professor talks, I just kind of automatically tune her out because she speaks like 5 words a minute. And also because it goes until 6:35. And I am usually starving by the end of it.

Tomorrow I start my 3 day, seasonal job working at the Candy Factory. I’m only working a total of about 9 hours for the Valentine’s holiday. But it pays pretty well, more than I was expecting. And honestly, my bank account is looking pretty pathetic at the moment. What I earn will help cover some bills, so I’m actually pretty stoked!

Sunday is CHINESE NEW YEAR! And I’m really excited but I don’t really have any plans. My mother is going to StL with my Grandmother, Aunt, and one of my cousins for an Asian CNY celebration. And my other cousins invited me to go eat Dim Sum Sunday morning back home. So there’s a possibility I might be going back this weekend… If I decide to be productive and finish a majority of my studying and homework that is…


Bout to busta cap.

1 Nov

Honestly, I’m one of those people who stresses out over pretty much anything. And it’s taken a lot out of me this week to try not to busta cap because I’ve been trying to figure out what I’m going to take next semester. I register tomorrow, so today I had a meeting with my advisor.  And despite my general feelings about the whole nursing department, she was actually pretty helpful. But I think that’s probably because she’s pretty new and hasn’t had much time to be corrupted by the rest of the advisors. However, the personal timeline she wrote for me was pretty generalized and gave me room to “make it my own schedule.” So I’ve spent a good 2ish+ hours today, trying to figure out what I’m going to take, and when I’m going to take it, and which professor I’m going to take it with. And to be completely honest, I’m still not completely sure what my schedule is going to look like. Right now I’m at 12 hrs. If I add another class I actually need, it’s going to screw up my fall semester. Yay…

Besides all that goodness, this past weekend was homecoming weekend here at Mizzou. On Thursday there was free breakfast for dinner. The event was held outside in the freezing cold, but it was still delicious. Friday was the Imagine Dragons concert, and besides me being a little bit too short and everyone else being a little bit too tall, it was SO AWESOME. Then the rest of the weekend I did pretty much nothing.

This weekend I’m going home. Which hopefully will allow me to de-stress from school. HA, just kidding. That’s a joke. I have 3 tests in a row next week. Friday, Monday, and Tuesday. So I should probably start studying for all of those. Lovely. My dad’s birthday is on Saturday so we’ll probably go out to eat. And I’ve been dying for some Yogurtini, so I’ll have to hit that up while I’m in the Pimpdence. I’m also super excited to sleep in my queen sized bed with my puff-puff blanket. And I’m also excited to have a break from microwavable and boxed food. Ahh.. thank goodness for my mother.

#throwbackthursday #puffpuffblanket
This was taken like junior year, either by the hot-potato, or Kendyl. LOL.

Me and my puff-puff blanket


30 Mar

Sorry about yesterday. Good thing no one really blogs on Friday…..

This week has been really stressful. Actually the past few weeks have been really stressful. But this week especially. Anatomy likes to make my life a living hell. I pulled my first all nighter this week for my anatomy test, which in the end probably wasn’t the best idea. The next day I stayed up until 5:30am writing a paper. And the next night I was up until 3ish studying for my anatomy lab exam. Yesterday was the day I really didn’t have much of anything to do, so I really just did nothing, and I actually went to bed before 2, which I don’t think I have done in a while.

On a positive note, I’ve eaten breakfast more times this week than I have the whole semester. And yesterday was steak night! It’s still not the greatest, but it definitely beats the regular food options.

This week was also Greek Week. On Sunday there was a speaker on abuse/bullying. That was interesting… kind of boring. And all I could think about for the most part was how I should be studying for anatomy. But because it was required for all Greeks to be there I was there… Tuesday was the Greek God/Goddess pageant. Yesterday was the Greek Olympics. All the Greek chapters were divided into teams and they just did like relays. It was held in the Mabee Center which doesn’t have AC. So a couple hundred people packed into the gym and everyone moving around was not the greatest without AC. Tonight there’s a Toga Party, but I don’t think I’m going because I have to go home for work tomorrow (yaaaaay…).  But after work tomorrow I’m going to see a ballet!! Supps excited for that!

But yeah, that’s pretty much all that’s happened this week. I’m so ready for it to be summer, guys. No joke.

Keep it classy, bros.


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